Booneville, Arkansas

This post is about our trip to Booneville, Arkansas with nine teenagers from our church.  This mission trip could be summed up in several descriptive words.

HOT.
Fun!
Challenging!
Very HOT!
Life-changing!
Unity.
Blessed!

Coincidentally, Booneville, AR, is located in the boonies of Arkansas.  It's at the base of the Ozark Mountains and is named after Daniel Boone.  If anyone has seen the movie "True Grit", you'll remember that the main character is from Yell County, which is next to the county that Booneville is in, and it is also very close to Fort Smith, which is where she goes to take care of business.  I was probably overly excited by this.  None of the teenagers seemed to care.  This kind of happens a lot.  :)  Booneville was the location of the Arkansas state Tuberculosis Sanitorium in the early 1900s.  Other than that, there's not much else to report on the actual town.  There are about 4,000 people who live in Booneville.

We left our church on Sunday morning as 11 people crammed into a 15 passenger van full of both bodies and luggage.  We came back a family-- the Duggars.  Somehow, along the way, we started referring to ourselves as Arkansas' biggest and most famous family.  The kids are still calling us Jim Bob and Mamachelle (Michelle).  It was really funny, and all of the kids were renamed so that their names would all start with the letter "J" so Macy became Jamacy, Olivia become Jolivia, JoHannah, etc.  You get the point.  At first, it was just a fun joke, but somehow God used it to turn us into a family.  These kids that were somewhat close started loving each other for who they were.  There were fewer put-downs, fewer arguments, and more loving of each other.  It was so neat to see this transformation take place... and also so neat to be viewed as leaders.  J and I felt so blessed that God was was working through us and helping us to be spiritual leaders for these kids.

The theme for the week was  Luke 6:27-28. 

“But to you who are listening I say: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, 

bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you." 

This was a really good verse for a week full of serving others, particularly under some difficult circumstances.  People should know that if you're going on a mission trip, be prepared to give up both your independence and comfort for the week.  It may mean that you have to wait for 30 something people to shower before you in dirty showers... and that almost immediately after coming out from the showers, you will feel as though you actually never showered.  Or when trying to work hard during days with a heat index of over 110 degrees.  


Our main task for the week was tornado relief.  Several small communities outside of Booneville were hit by a tornado a few weeks before we came to Arkansas.  Because they were so small and didn't have a post office, they were not receiving federal aid since they technically aren't a "town".  Something like that...  Anyway, our job was to basically pick up tornado debris.  Our group worked on sorting a demolished mobile home into different piles.  The picture to the right shows the wood pile.  It was really exhausting work.  Things were just everywhere!  It was a job where you didn't really get the satisfaction of seeing a completed project or get to interact with people in the community. 

We also served in other ways.  The teenagers facilitated a Kids Camp, where they planned activities for children in the community.  Other crews went to visit the nursing home and danced and play games with the seniors.  My crew had three days on the work site so we basically sweated all week.  My kids on my crew were such hard workers and did not complain.  My co-crew leader, on the other hand... 

I think that's about enough for now...  I've added some more pictures and have captions under them so you can tell what the picture is!  Oh yeah, after our mission work was over, we made a stop in Hot Springs, Arkansas, on the way home.  We went to an amusement/water park there and spent the night at a church there.  It was really fun!

All of our group at almost the top of Mt. Magazine!

The girls at Sonic!

J in Hot Springs, Arkansas with Bill.  :)

It was a blessing to get to spend a week with this group of kids and to get to know them!  I really felt like God used us in so many unexpected ways while on this trip.  It's a blessing to be able to serve God in this way! :)   

It's been a while..

I have to be honest and say that I really haven't known what to write about lately.  I think my life might be boring or depressing, and I'm not sure I've totally figured out this season of life.  A few weeks, someone sang this song at church, and I felt like it was the closest to really saying how I feel about the right now.

The sermon was on Doubting Thomas, and there was a group of singers who sang Nickel Creek's Doubting Thomas song.  I felt like it captured my spirit over the last year... or at least the last few months.  When I say doubt, I am not referring to not believing in God or lacking faith.  I have struggled in my circumstances and have questioned why some things have happened the way that they have.


I don't want use this blog as a impetus to say "Why me?" or to use it to complain about how no matter how hard I try, that I just can't get a job... but I do feel the need to share a little bit of that story.  Haven't I already been through this just last summer? :)  It hasn't been so long since I applied for 20+ jobs and heard nothing for months, only to eventually get a job that everyone who applies for that particular job gets regardless of whether you speak English or if you're a real person*.  Then, I began the time-consuming process of applying for a School Psychologist position for the second year.  And guess what?  No interviews.  No jobs in at least 10 surrounding counties. 


I spent seven years in school to apparently learn to wait.  I'm joking a little, but that's really what it feels like.  The three years I spent in grad school were so difficult, and I wanted to quit almost every day, but I felt like God called me to that place and so I persevered.  I went through what felt like an eternity of emptiness doing something I didn't enjoy.  And for what?  A terrible job market.  And one good friend that came out of the program.  


Well, hello there, sin, you and I are well acquainted over the past year or so.  There have been days when I have felt so discouraged and frustrated and angry.  "Lord, why did you make me go through this?  Why does my job situation have to be the first thing people ask about?  Why can't people stop giving me the same bad advice over and over? **"  Deep down, I know that God isn't holding out on me or punishing me for anything.  I've come to the conclusion that maybe it wasn't the right path, and this is God's way of protecting me from something else or leading me down a different path.  I haven't really figured that part out yet.  I tried to feel thankful that God gave me a time of rest after graduate school.  I've even struggling with wondering when it's going to be my time.  I feel stuck, sometimes.  A few months ago, I was with a friend when she got news of getting her second job right before she got married.  What perfect timing!  Of course, I'm happy for her but I couldn't help wondering when my turn for good news would come.  I know that's so incredibly selfish, and I didn't share those thoughts with her, of course, but it's moments like that that sometimes send me into a tailspin.


I'm trying to be hopeful and faithful and trust that God is refining me during this period.  I'm not saying that I should get what I want or that I even deserve something just because I worked hard.  I guess I just expected to have more clarity by this point or that God would provide other options for me.  I don't know.  :)  I think I'm struggling with feeling like I need to be more.  I feel like my world impact is so small, sometimes.  Sometimes, I feel like others may look at me like I'm wasting my life because I'm smart and I have a lot to offer. 


"Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD."
Psalm 27:14    






* When I say "real person", I'm referring to the person who wanted to become a sub because of children's smiles.  I know.  I know.  I should be nicer.  I love the smile of a child about as much as anyone, but I'm not sure being a sub = children's smiles.  Maybe they smile when they get away with tricking you.  :)


** Okay, yet another complaint.  School psychologists are not the same as teachers.  We are hired by the district, not a particular school.  Sometimes, I want to scream when people tell me to just go around to schools and introduce myself.

Just a little encouragement!

I know it has been so long since I haven't written on here.  I have a post in the works but haven't figured out if it's exactly what I want to say or not...  I know it doesn't really matter that much, but it's a work in progress.  Just like me.  :)  

Saw this video and thought that most of you would love it!  What a sweet blessing to be loved by an almighty God!

I'll be back soon!